I just need you there so that the loneliness and the sadness and the despair doesn’t drown me. I just need some help treading water for a little longer. But I can’t tell you this. I can’t tell you because I am scared to admit it to myself yet.

We need a different scale of ambition when struggling with our mental health. What we can usually do or achieve goes out of the window. Instead we have to start small, really small. Look up at a tree. Go to the park. Water a plant.

When people ask me ‘what makes you anxious? How are you feeling?’ I often find myself responding with ‘I don’t know’. That’s what’s hard to come to terms with about anxiety – I don’t know what it is, what triggers it why I’m feeling the way I do on a daily basis. I just know it’s there.

Things I am learning still , the hardest part is constantly having to remind yourself ! That’s tiring on it’s own !!!

Thanks Richy

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Hi i am a 49 year old plumber who ran his own business for years happily married for 27 years and one 22 year old son recently had a breakdown ended up in hospital dignosed with a severe depression this blog is my journey day to day

3 thoughts on “Observations

  1. Hi Richy, your observations post really resonated with me. I just attended The Speakmans workshop in Bristol on Sunday. You may’ve seen my Facebook post. They have worked with such traumatised people and have been successful. One of their big focusses is finding the origin of anxiety and not treating the symptoms with drugs.

    They both have had big things happen in their life (domestic violence and near death situation due to health).

    Like you they also are a big fan of goal setting, no matter how small or fantastical. They likened it to 1 degree of change – if each day you changed the angle of hitting a golf ball by 1 degree you would hit it in the right direction.

    They also said we are only born with 2 fears – falling over and loud bangs. Anything else can be undone.

    There was a man at the workshop who worked for them full time who bounced about and was confident. Years ago I remember seeing him on this morning. He had severe PTSD from a bad attack whilst serving as a policeman- badly broken leg and was told he would never walk again. He was suicidal and his sister had phoned the show in desperation. I can send you a short clip of how he was and it is unbelievable.

    I’m seeing Matt this week so can fill him in to let you know. The Speakmans cost £200 for the day. Best money spent. Don’t get me wrong I now have lots of work to do – they give you the tools to do it. It takes 60 days to create new habits. They are on the verge of getting their course rolled out on the NHS.

    I honestly believe their methods which are straightforward could help you. Love Amanda xxx

    1. Hi Amanda as always thank you for your kind words and advice , I’m glad you could get something from your session I really am . Thinking of you just now as always and especially just now with Daddy Derek being in the hospital . Love and big hugs xxx❤️

      1. Thank you Richy, that is kind on both counts ♥️ Hope he is out tomorrow. Fingers crossed xx love to you all xx ♥️

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