Find a way to explain

You need a different scale of ambition when struggling with your mental health. What i can usually do or achieve goes out of the window. Instead i have to start small, really small. Look up at a tree. Go to the park. Water a plant.

When people ask me ‘what makes you anxious? How are you feeling?’ I often find myself responding with ‘I don’t know’. That’s what’s hard to come to terms with about anxiety – I don’t know what it is, what triggers it why I’m feeling the way I do on a daily basis. I just know it’s there.

I just need you there so that the loneliness and the sadness and the despair doesn’t drown me. I just need some help treading water for a little longer. But I can’t tell you this. I can’t tell you because I am scared to admit it to myself yet.

The last one is how you feel most of the time ! I admit it to myself some of the time though most times not , it’s really tough and you have to stop a second and remind yourself that you have people round you that don’t really understand but they will try and do they’re best .

Thanks

Published by sinook01

Hi i am a 49 year old plumber who ran his own business for years happily married for 27 years and one 22 year old son recently had a breakdown ended up in hospital dignosed with a severe depression this blog is my journey day to day

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