When will it end ?

How do you mend a broken soul when all that remains is just little tiny pieces of the person you once were? How does one get to this place? Long lost feelings of hope, happiness, and joy are now replaced with feelings of hurt, sadness and despair. When does the pain end? You try everything you can to just feel a little light in your life, but all there ever is is darkness and sorrow. When will it get better? How do you create a better life for yourself when all there is left is emptiness? There are no longer feelings of pride and success. Instead they have been replaced with feelings of failure and hurt. When will this end? There is an emptiness and a void where my soul and heart once was. I dont think it will ever be the same again. How can it be? How did it get to this point? When did I finally snap? How do I turn the switch off and go back to the someone I once was? There is no answer to that. How do I explain that all this anger and sadness and rage and terror all come from a place I do not know? How do I help myself when I dont know how to feel? The darkness has finally consumed the bright light that use to shine within me. The old me, the happy me is a distant memory that will be long forgotten soon. Why is it easier to accept this is the way they are and accept that the darkness is your new home instead of trying to find the light again? When will it end?

Published by sinook01

Hi i am a 49 year old plumber who ran his own business for years happily married for 27 years and one 22 year old son recently had a breakdown ended up in hospital dignosed with a severe depression this blog is my journey day to day

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